Sunday, April 14, 2013

Goodbye, old friend

My friend and co-worker of 10 years died today.  I was going to visit him last week, but I didn't.  I was afraid of being an emotional windowpane, afraid of being unable to mask my emotions while there, and afraid of doing more harm than good.  "This week," I told myself, "I'll go see him this week."

I'm not going to make the same mistake with his wife, a talented and prolific quilter that I've known for just as long, albeit in a different context.  I will go to see her, and hug her tightly,  and if I wet her shoulder with my tears, so be it.  Being strong is for the birds.  I waited until I was strong enough to say goodbye to my friend, and I waited too long. I hope he was able to tell from my card how much he meant to me and how much I will miss him.

Goodbye, Russ.  I'm happy that you are no longer in pain.  I'll see you again on the other side.

12 comments:

sophie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm sure your friend knew how much he meant to you.

Vroomans' Quilts said...

Condolences in this time of grief.

tubilinha tiacarminha said...

Não se culpe tanto,seu amigo sabia o quanto vocês eram importantes um para o outro.Condolencias.fique bem.

Char said...

I'm sorry for your loss Erin. I'm sure he knew.

Karen - Quilts...etc. said...

it is very hard to work up to seeing someone you know is dying - I didn't visit my brother near enough when he suffered from cancer, I hated to see him so sick - I should have visited more even though it was a long drive to do so.

Wacky Woman said...

Your friend's wife will understand and appreciate your visit no matter what. Hugs to all of you.

beth said...

Sorry for your loss.

Shay said...

Im so sorry to hear this Erin. Sending all my good thoughts your way and to this wonderful gentleman's family.

He knew exactly how much you admired and respected him even with out a visit.



Jindi's Cottage said...

Condolences Erin...

Sheila said...

I am so sorry to hear of your friend's death. Your card was beautiful, Erin.

Cheryl's Teapots2Quilting said...

So sorry. I'm sure both he and his wife understood.

Nancy said...

I'm sorry to hear of Russ's passing. Give my regards to Carolyn - she is such a dear.